Boring title because im bored.

Yeah, im bored. As always. Im just sitting here.. wasting my life on being bored.
I really feel like walking right now, just wandering around the small streets, sitting on a bench here and there, feeling the cold darkness, and the silence of the night. Wow.. that didn't sound quite that emo in my head. But however, my parents would probably think i was going crazy if i was walking around on the streets now, seeing as the clock is half past eleven.

Today my Wulffmorgenthaler calender reminded me that my birthday is only a month away, which is.. well, sorta shitty since i dont know what i really want for my birthday. I know its really selfish, and a lot of kids all over the world only wish to survive and all, but it's bothering me alot. Two years ago i got a Nintendo DS for my birthday, and after there hasn't really been anything i want. Not something expensive at least. I mean i can always use new markers and sketchbooks, but it just hasn't got that "wow" to it. You know what im saying?
I think the thing thats really on top of my list is an artbook from an artist whom i admire a lot. Sadly, it's only for sale online.. And my parents don't really like buying stuff on the internet for presents, in case they dont arrive on time. Understandable since that has happened several times before. But still..
Yeah im selfish.

Why do i always feel lonely during the holidays?